Our Generation

A never ending frivolous desire to be ubiquitous and stagnant in one moment, in every moment, always.

Am I Crazy?

Nothing in the world makes me feel more powerful than the transformation I began 6 months ago.

This body will be sculpted to aerial perfection.

Pole is life, I wonder what it feels like to have a title.

If you don't like it, don't look.

Jus' Some

I'm exhausted, up at 4:40am, but Boot Camp was great.

WTF SCHOOL - 8 exams next week?

I had a cheat day yesterday for my family birthday BBQ - some dairy, a white bun :O

Back on track today - this I am proud of:

I was so tired after school today I just wanted to say fuck it and go buy something on the way - but instead I made a really crappy salad because a crappy salad is STILL a salad and part of the challenge:

So sad, right?

Saturday SHRIMP SALAD after an absolutely wonderful day;

Feeling really good today besides all of that. Calm.

Feel better Stv.

Hanson Was Amazing

When I was young. Did anyone else have those books;

"Totally Taylor!" - "Zac Attack!" ?

90's on 9 must be playing again;

"Hold on to the ones who really care, in the end they'll be the only ones there"

Well said, Taylor, well said.

Friday's Salad

And for now, Saturday Morning FRUIT Salad

Try This & See What Happens

(sorry for excessive blogging but I couldn't resist this)

I can't help but be totally enthused by the new blog I found and posted about earlier this week. Here's something I did that warmed my heart;

Go to a date that means something to you, and see what the message for that day is.

Was it applicable?

I went to my Dad's birthday, and this is what I found:

I feel like this is such a sign, because I used to have a journal I started to write my journey since losing him & life growing up - it was titled "Your 1 Worth".

Try & let me know - Did this have any effect for you?

For Mckenzie Woodman:

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

HOLY SHIT

I CANNOT WALK!

I'm experiencing a little thing we like to call DOMS, in the massage world;

Delayed Onset Muscle Soreness

FUCK! YOU!

Boot Camp tomorrow bright and early. Gunna be wicked, considering I can't even get into my car without looking like I have a disability!

Made a curry chicken salad today, and left Julv in a house smelling like India!
I'm chuckling at my desk...

Red Peppers are so amazing. On their own, not so much, in a salad? Ooh-eee. Just sayin'.

Bike Riding:

Sunday Night! I'm picking up the bikes and we gon' cruise Marda Loop!

(ps. When I say 'night' I mean before 9pm because that's my bed time!)

HIGHEST MARK IN MY KINES. / ADVANCED ANATOMY - I AM LOVIN' LIFE!

Don't Spread Yourself Too Thin

In lieu of recent events (hitting the breaking point as far as anxiety, stress & an over-packed schedule go) I'm taking my Mother's (& other's) advice to stop burning the candle at both ends;

I quit my job

- to have more time to study, do clinic, rest, relax & have a SPARE moment!

sigh sigh sigh of relief - for once

BootCamp Day 1

Success! I was up at 4:45am no problem. My trainer is so nice (and really attractive - can you say motivation? Muahah...) but holy crap it was brutal hard!

It's now been over 12 hours since then, and I won't lie - it feels like a different day. But I'm not tired! Therefore, I feel today was great over all!

The challenge also began for me today and I made the best salad ever! See photo:

I had NO refined sugar, NO dairy and I did over an hour of fitness ! *pats self on back*

I think that the hardest part of the challenge for me will be the daily salad. I don't have too much time between school & work so I'm going to follow in the foot steps of Mr.StvG, and post a photo to stay accountable. Someone please get on my case if you don't see a picture [Abbey?] :).

Also, I'm now 21! I don't feel any different - not surprising. Tons of birthday messages and texts made for a smiley day. A day that commenced at 8:45pm. How unexpected?

Who wants to go bike riding?!

First Post-It

I discovered a blog today that's really great- check it out here!

I'm using this specific post-it from the site for inspiration with my Boot Camp, and I may re-post it when I need to remind myself. I hope some of you do the same, because a little pick-me-up comes in handy sometimes!

I realize Boot Camp isn't impossible, but 5:15am is a time I haven't been friends with since I worked at Red Arrow. And even then I could barely sleep from paranoia I'd miss my alarm. Actually more like 4:45 will become my friend, I have to BE THERE at 5:15. It's going to be a challenge for me, 3 days a week for 2 months. Wish me luck!

I Bid You Adieu, Twenty

My birthday is tomorrow! For anyone who knows me, even in the slightest - you KNOW this is essentially my favorite day ever! It makes it even better that I have pole tomorrow, so I will be spending it doing my favorite thing. I have school, which sucks. It's on a Tuesday, which also sucks. I have boot camp at 5:15am the following day which SUCKS...

I'm kidding. It really isn't so bad. I'm not drinking regardless, and Boot Camp = WIN not SUCK.
Also, I've already had the

BEST BIRTHDAY ON THE PLANET EARTH - FRIDAY NIGHT!

That is an understatement. I was heading into the weekend thinking I'd have a really low-key birthday dinner and just go dancing on Saturday - I didn't even want to make an event because I know everyone is busy, I AM busy, and over all I didn't want to be let down.

Driving up to Curtis' place I had NO idea where I was, and WHO the fuck lived in the house I was about to enter, let alone what was happening inside.

The door opens and almost EVERYONE on the planet that I love and miss was in the living room. Yelling SURPRISE - which, potentially stopped my heart for a moment, as you can witness me gripping at my chest moments after walking in the door.

Honey Brown Keg = Check off my bucket list

I had the best time. The BEST night ever. I can't say it enough. Thank you thank you thank you for everyone who came and made me feel so loved. I will never forget that night.

I would now like to post some of the photos that I feel sum up the night.

Best Birthday Visitors

Some of My Favorite People

Forced Into Doing My 1st Ever Keg Stand

The Result of Said Keg Stand..

And the Reason This All Happened!

I Love You!

Push

May - Begin Sculpture

So, Boot Camp starts in a few days (May 10th) and what better way to amp my results by adding a separate challenge to help me keep up workouts that will be on my own, and also focus on nutrition!

I'm not "officially" registering into the challenge but the list of guidelines that I have to follow are;

• 45 minutes of workout everyday - 2-4 of which must be resistance/strength training
• Eating a large salad everyday
• No dairy
• No refined sugars
• 50% less alcohol consumption (hoping to make this more like 95% less..)

I agree with Stv when it comes to realizing WHERE refined sugars are found but I do have a Nutrition Nazi in my class, so I can always ask her for help.

Contrary to that struggle, I have my pole in my favor. If I don't feel like doing anything else, working up a sweat on my pole is my favorite time waster, and 45 minutes will fly by!

Also, seems like it's time to finally dust off the weights I got for Christmas!

Whenever I see them I think of you, because they're called "Alex" & you always say I look like an Alex.

I've been asking Julv to photograph my "before" photo's for a while now, just for personal use, but now I have something to motivate me further.

Over all, I'm really excited to try this out. I haven't had to push my body in a long time, and I can't wait to see what happens.

My Kinesiology, Advanced Anatomy & Exercise Physiology midterms are tomorrow and the day after. I'm actually feeling REALLY good about these exams. Not dreading them at all. Can you believe I'll be done in 3 months? Fuck. Yes.

Pole Level 4 - Class 3 is tomorrow. Last week I finally came across a move I can't quite do. Personally, I have no desire to do this as part of my recreational practice, but it's so frustrating knowing that I can't put this under my belt. If you would like to see the move, search "wrist seat" or "wrist sit" on YouTube and I'm sure you'll find something close enough.

Once I master this move, I'll post my winning photo!

I can't wait to see you, I'm counting the hours !

It's my birthday weekend coming up - If you're interested, come to the Zoo on Saturday! Not exactly sure what time, but it should be a good time. I don't know details but I think with Jodie & Megan being in town we'll probably go out Friday/Saturday.

I think that's it for today, except one final note;

I'm going to Gaga!

Comment's I've Received Today

From the guys I work with:

You look like a teacher
You look like a librarian
You look like a secretary
You look professional
You changed your style today...

What is this a result of, you may be wondering?

Waking up 10 minutes before I needed to leave for work, wearing a dress shirt and blazer (this clothing choice never happens), and having my hair up because I head bed head and showering wasn't an option.

Aka - LAZINESS = Notice Taken

Last week I cut my hair and actually attempted to look nice at work (this choice never happens) and NO ONE noticed.

How do boys even work? Beats the hell outta me.

90's on 9

Does anyone have satellite radio? It's always playing at work - 80's on 8 station - which, don't get me wrong, is a wonderful station.

But every now and then people have been playing the 90's channel, and now that I have satellite in the Jeep I like to listen to it too.

For instance, as I type this 'All Saints' is playing. HAH - what happened to them?? What happened to 80% of the people that come on? (Clearly, Backstreet Boys playing creates bliss and not curiosity - in case you were wondering)

Song Change - Aqua Barbie Girl 

Listening to 90's music feels like smelling a sweater you found in your grandparents basement and having about 20 memories coming instantly flooding back.

I guess the more important question shouldn't be 'what happened to..' but 'what do you remember about 90's music'. Personally, everything that's come to mind has been hysterical or calming. I will accept either of those willingly.

Song change - Ini Kamoze Here Comes the Hotstepper

 All I know is the "Naaaa, na na na naaa, na na na na na na na na na na, na na na naaa"

(10 bucks says if you're not Megan Dietrich that's all you know too)

 Okay friends, another Q - What 90's song defines you the most? To provoke response, I will take the liberty of making my own assumptions for a couple of you who actually read this blog:

 Song change - TLC Unpretty
[ RIP Left Eye, Beth is holding down your legacy ]

• Abbey S: Let's Talk About Sex - Salt-N-Pepa
• Jodie G: Smells Like Teen Spirit - Nirvana
• Mckenzie W: Pretty Fly For A White Guy - The Offspring
• Megan D: Baby Got Back - Sir Mixx-A-Lot

 One final question;

 Are you Jimmy Ray?

What's Good:

• A girl I work with gave me a $100 gift certificate to Fit Body Boot Camp
• The Alberta Government gave me 5,000 dollars
• Finally getting the Jeep tomorrow - BIGGEST relief ever - FUCK YOU worst Insurance Lady
• Jodie & Megan for 1 week IN 1 week
• BBC 3/week for 8 weeks for the price of 2/week! MAY 10 MAY 10 MAY 10!
• Pole Class tomorrow & how AMAZING it feels to master tricks because it's all in the legs!
• Birthday nearing and jungle 'jim' playing!

Only one thing that isn't so good...

I just wrote the Bill of Sale for good ol' Alero.

RIP Grandma "the boat" Mobile

Untitled.

I feel like I've recently had an epiphany.

Now, I'm not really an expert on how these things work, or if it's what you'd call a quarter life crisis - but regardless I feel so READY to make something BIG happen in my life.

Streaming through blogs, and even Facebook profiles, I notice such foreboding trends.
Some of which I've mentioned before; constant negativity, false confidence, translucent relationships smeared all over the place, empty goals...

I'm over it. I can't even look anymore. I wonder how quickly arthritis sets in from over-use of the atlantoaxial joint. I'd be a prime candidate if this hadn't happened. Head shake 101.

I was talking to a friend today who seems to be having a rough go of it lately. I gave her my most honest and sincere words of kindness despite knowing very little of the situation at hand. She seemed so thankful and touched, and I wondered why? The last conversation we had was over a month ago, and the last time we were physically in the presence of one another was probably longer than that. I figured my opinion - though completely from the heart - would sound like a broken record at this point, after her closer friends' bout.

Where is the fucking good in life?
Why is being nice, down to earth and separate from drama so rare?

I'm not perfect, not even close - but every day I am making effort to be the kind of person I would want to have in my life. I physically and internally document goals for myself all the time. Goals that aren't just about how I should "study every day this week". Goals that are making me the BEST version of me possible. Goals that help me exude energy that is real, and not for a second agenda.

I watched a video of a man who swam the English Channel yesterday. And during the commentary it stated: Essentially anyone with general health is capable of this.

I don't want to swim for 16 hours to walk onto the sands of France, I don't want to climb Mount Everest; but if "General Health" is all it takes to do something absolutely incredible, then what the fuck am I waiting for?

This is not some temporary audacious outlook - bold declaration without real betterment makes me sick;

This is the beginning of everything I am capable of.

WHOOPS

I say this in my head a lot lately.

Thanks for the talk, I really needed it. Probably will continue to need it, soon.

I would LOVE to post about how AMAZING my first class of Level 4 Pole was last night, but - Julv is going to photograph me this weekend, which means no more photos of randoms, and progress photos that are MINE!

I can't wait! And I hope you can't wait either!

Summer

Vancouver Pride August 1st 2010 - Don't mind if I do...

Las Vegas? Sure, I'll have a side of that too.

Picking up the Jeep, Saturday.

Missing you, everyday.

Random Thought

It creeps me the FUCK out when people refer to their eating disorders as Ana & Mia.