Today, I woke up to a text from "Carly Welsh"
For some reason that's how I felt I should save you in my phone.
Weird.
Deleted that today at 4:30.
What a day.
I'm at work, should have started and finished studying but I had a bunch of ACTUAL work to do, that was alarming.
And in addition, I have about 10 different things on my mind.
I go to school with a girl who really, REALLY reminds me of Ashley Winters. Her name is Kristen Penhall and she is growing to be one of my most favoured people. She's funny, she's intelligent, she's witty (and uses that wit to make fun of the same people as I would). She actually just posted something on my Facebook, what a coincidence.
I think it's quite ironic that just as Ashley leaves the country, her twin shows up. I haven't seen Ashley in forever, but I still find it odd.
I have seen some serious Moses action errupt from speaking to Kalie in the past, but none like the last 24 hours. I think I didn't stand a chance before it even started. Earlier in the day on Wednesday, 3 different people said to me
"I can't believe she hasn't texted you yet"
Call me naive, but I could believe it. I wasn't surprised when it happened. But I wasn't holding my breath trying to predict it, either.
I can't even post much beyond that, not here.
You tore me a new asshole today, and I honestly need you to know that it hurts. I don't try to be an idiot, or make terrible decisions. You hate her. Not me. And I have a serious problem, just yesterday you made fun of it. Just because I rarely cry doesn't mean you can stomp on baby's tear ducts..
With all of that in mind, I think I need to see someone. Like a doctor, or whoever the fuck tells you what is or isn't wrong with your brain.
Wouldn't it be wonderful for my Mom and I to bond over ADHD - after all, we already bond over weighing the same.
I kid you not, my Mom has lost so much weight she could be my body twin. Beth actually looked at her and said "MMMM"
That'd be creepy, except moments later I swing back with "Mmm.. Chair sex"
(Becky I'm so sorry, your wheelchair isn't a choice)
Regardless - WIN.
Pole Class Level 1? Complete.
Level 2 - Commence next Monday; we have to start wearing shorts. I think this is the part where I start to become familiar saying things like 'check out this sick bruise on my belly button' , 'wow - I have the biggest callus on my inner thigh'.
Excited..
School is getting really intense. I can actually feel a migraine creeping it's way into behind my eye.
Dear friends in Calgary:
My Practicum begins February 5th. 4pm-7pm.
Lemme touch yo body fo' a minute; 24 bucks.
And by a minute, I mean 60.
Every Friday after that as well. :)
Speaking of Friday, I'm hanging out with Eric tomorrow. I think we are gunna watch a movie or something. Feels good to forgive, forget, and be friends a bit.
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Dear Beth,
I love you more than anything. I've lost track of how many times I've fallen inlove with you, too.
Bean
